This is a picture of Christian when he was just a few days old. He was already a chubby little guy at 9lbs 2.8oz.
I've been feeling a little sad lately about the fact that my little boy won't be my "baby" for much longer. I've found myself holding him and kissing him even more than usual. I took this picture when I was snuggling him while he was napping. Normally, I would be using that time to get some things done, but I found myself holding him instead. I frequently find myself asking him, "Do you want mommy to rock you?" I usually quickly get a "no" in response. I also have been giving in and laying with him in his bed until he falls asleep at night (something I would not have done a month ago). I guess I'm just trying to hang on to these last few weeks of having only one child. I guess I'm fearful that there will be times when I'm going to have to hold the baby and I won't be able to hold him. It makes me a little sad to think about the fact that he probably won't remember much about these past two and a half years of his life. It's been the best two years of my life, but I'm sure his little mind won't hold these memories for long. In his mind, he'll always be the big brother, who had a little sister.
This is a picture of Christian when he was just a few days old. He was already a chubby little guy at 9lbs 2.8oz.
I've been feeling a little sad lately about the fact that my little boy won't be my "baby" for much longer. I've found myself holding him and kissing him even more than usual. I took this picture when I was snuggling him while he was napping. Normally, I would be using that time to get some things done, but I found myself holding him instead. I frequently find myself asking him, "Do you want mommy to rock you?" I usually quickly get a "no" in response. I also have been giving in and laying with him in his bed until he falls asleep at night (something I would not have done a month ago). I guess I'm just trying to hang on to these last few weeks of having only one child. I guess I'm fearful that there will be times when I'm going to have to hold the baby and I won't be able to hold him. It makes me a little sad to think about the fact that he probably won't remember much about these past two and a half years of his life. It's been the best two years of my life, but I'm sure his little mind won't hold these memories for long. In his mind, he'll always be the big brother, who had a little sister.
4 comments:
Oh, Judy...he will always be your boy. It is totally understandable about your feelings of cherishing these last few weeks together. He is your first and that is very special and unique. Christian is going to be a great big brother!!
I totally remember those feelings. It all works out in the end! Hope you are feeling well - the countdown is on! Take care...
Oh Judy. You must remember that you were once the little one that came into our lives when your big sister, Amy, was the only child. Look at the two of you today. What would you do without each other? What would Amy do without her precious little sister? Christian will always love and treasure his mother and his little sister. Cherish this time with him, but look forward to sharing him with his siblings.
Mom
Definitely enjoy these last weeks with just him. You will be amazed at how your love multiplies, not divides. There's no way to explain how that feels, but it's true. And yes, you will have more special times with him too and he is going to love his little sister. He won't remember life without her. But cherish these days for sure!
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